pandora's aquarium

I feel like crap. I started to feel like crap last night. Little Human has become Satan's Child the last few weeks. Yesterday was horrible. I swore he wouldn't make it through the day. Last night when I went to bed I was way too cold and was achy. I woke up whimpering because it hurt so much. Jonathan was snoring and between that and the pain, I was not pleased. This morning I went back to bed for a few hours.

Jonathan and I have been arguing over the daycare situation. He knows that I am needing more of a break than what I am getting. Especially now that LH is evil. I know I need more too, but am not wanting to spend the money on it. Well, the other day he discovered that he should have been getting a discount on the daycare because of where he works. The director decided to prorate it back to when LH started daycare, so now we have three months of an extra day of daycare at no cost. YAY FOR LITTLE HUMAN BEING IN DAYCARE 3 DAYS A WEEK!!!

Also, we have a ton of moths in out house and I wish our cats weren't so freaking lazy!

I had a holiday post that I started and saved privately to go back and rework a little. Instead I spent the 26th at the ER with mom, Jonathan, and Darby. I wanted mom to go to the ER, but she wouldn't go unless I went. So we all went and were seen by all the same people. Mom and I have upper respiratory infections. They gave us cough syrup with codeine and antibiotics. He asked me to wait on taking the antibiotics, unless I felt I really need them. He told mom to go ahead and start them since she has other lung issues. I think I will pick them up tomorrow. I haven't been able to speak above a whisper since Christmas Day.

I feel especially bad, since Darby has an appt today at the doctor for his second H1N1. I was supposed to take him, but instead Jonathan has to go into work late in order to take him. I didn't take the cough syrup this morning, so that I could drive, but then I couldn't breathe. I know Jonathan is irritated at me, but at this point I am just not functional, and I don't know how to make myself functional. I haven't slept through the night in over a week, and napping during the day is next to impossible with Darby here. I cough so hard I vomit, and every time I cough my head feels as if it is splitting in two. I am ready to die now...

There is a little bit of good news out of this. I have pretty much quit smoking.

Also, I realize this is worded awkwardly-YAY CODEINE!!!. Darby and Jonathan didn't need anything at the ER. Jonathan needed to drive us, and the cats and dogs refuse to babysit Darby for us.

It wasn't all over with yesterday. She woke up this morning with a lot of swelling and pain in her right leg. We took her back to the Hospital at 8:00 am. Turns out she had 2 pseudo-anueyrisms. They got one to go, but the other was larger. Yet again, two seperate docs telling us two different things, which ended up with her in intense pain for about 3 hours and we still have to go back tomorrow to get it dealt with. They said we will only be there for about an hour, we'll see. I really hope so, because I can't miss another day of work. The owner isn't upset about it really, but I can't afford it.

Thank you ohno_jonathan_o. You have seen entirely more of my mom then you ever expected, and you still love us! We love you too!

Okay. I have been avoiding this post for as long as possible, but it is time. My mom is pretty sick. She has diabetes which is a bit under control now, but last week we found out that she has some heart issues. To the point that the doctor who did the EKG walked the results over to the Cardiologist to make an appt. for her. The Cardiologist prety much told her that unless they do a bypass (which is not an option due to lung problems as well), she can expect a slow painful death. Those were his exact words. Nice, huh? Anyway, since she can't have the bypass, they will be doing an angioplasty and putting in stents on on Monday (20th). She went in for some more tests today, and the doctor was wanting to wheel her over to get angio done today. This should help decrease her pain, and help lenghten the time she has left. At least I hope so. I don't know what I'd do without her.


BTW, Thank you ohno_jonathan_o. If you hadn't guilted her, she wouldn't do it.

There is nothing like waking up at 3:22 am (again at 4:05, 5:10, 5:45, 6:20), and throwing up repeatedly. It's a lovely way to start the day. I highly recommend it. Yeah.