pandora's aquarium

My life seems to be going really really well lately. I mean REALLY well. It's kinda scary. This new business thing is going to be awesome. I'm getting a car and another computer. I'm in a fairly healthy relationshp with a guy I really like. It just seems like somehow, everything is falling into place.
I am going to Placitas this weekend to learn more stuff, and pick up a load of stock. I realized this week that I need to get my shit in order, because he's leaving soon, and I still don't know most of the shit I need to!
I have discovered that J and I seem to be pretty violent when we are drunk. It's a little odd, and not bad. I think we may have an issue coming up that will need to be talked through. I hope that we can reach something that we can both agree upon.
Anyway, I love you all.

I got rid of my Solitary group on Yahoo (nobody wanted to join), but I started a new group there. Nikki should be happy about it! Here is the link if anyone wants to see, if not, that's okay too!

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/V_K/

It's all J's fault. I SWEAR it. I was a normal girl before he came along! Now I get pissed that my marks fade before I have a chance to show them off!
As you can all see, I really like this graphic, although I am working on some photography that will give me new stuff to work with (I hope)! Now if I can just have some privacy to edit them! Anyway, I do hope that I see some of my friends there!
Love you all, LOTS!!!!!

I had a very long discussion with a friend the other day. We were discussing cutting. Why we do it and why we haven't been doing it. I realized that my new fascination with *The Scene* probably has a lot to do with it. When Sean and I broke up, I wanted to cut. I thought about it every day. I didn't do it, but I REALLY wanted to.
It's like the cutting was the release for all of the pent up stress that I let take over. I am getting a bit more fascinated with the whole Kink Scene, and I wonder if that is why I haven't wanted to cut. I was never interested before, but now I am looking at it differently. I wonder if I will just replace my cutting habits with this, and if that's a good thing (or a bad one)? I don't know anymore. I mean at least if I decide to investigate, I could hardly choose a less threatening partner than J. I know he won't hurt me in an unpleasant way, and he knows that this is *mostly* new to me. I don't know.
I'm sure that all of you would rather know less about my sexual habits than you do (congrats Nikki, I'm sure that you are *REALLY* enjoying this thread)! But, I know that I won't be judged, and I don't really have people to talk to about this stuff. Anyway, I am retarded.
I love you all, LOTS