pandorablue | Birthday reflections

I have been reflecting on 2005, and I just realized that I tend to make my birthday the day to set down resolutions. I don't know if it's because it's so close after the widely celebrated *New Year*, or it it's just because it is another part of the wheel.
Maybe, I'm just odd, but I feel that birthdays are right up there with the Sabbats. This is the day that YOU, a new human being, came into the world, however many years ago. And if you happen to know your actual birth time, that can be such a wonderful personal power moment.
I am going to do something here, that maybe you don't care about, but I have a hard time keeping my birthday resolutions. I wonder if I publicly post them, where people can yell at me if I don't keep them, it will be better?

1. I *MUST* quit smoking. There is no choice about this. I am 26 years old and when I wake up in the morning I sound like my 55 year old mother, who has been smoking for 37 years.

2. I must start taking my spiritual studies more seriously. I miss feeling connected to the earth around me, and the people I love (you).

3. I need to start some sort of exercise routine. I had been doing Yoga, and some cardio. I stopped late 2004, because I was selling my house. I never got back into the routine, and I need to.

4. I have to look into going back to school. I need to get a real job, and I want to make my life a little more stable.

5. I need to stop working myself so hard. I am only one person, and it is not possible for me to do the work of 4 people (no matter what I try to tell myself).

6. I need to get my house really clean. I am a firm believer that your surroundings can really impact your mood. I have let my house get entirely too messy, and I am a Capricorn. I like neat organized stuff.

7. Finally, I need to keep in touch with the people I care about more. I let too many things fall away because I am too busy, or I have a boyfriend, or I have to watch TV (no offense my Love). I need to *STOP* doing that!

I love you guys. I had a pretty good year in 2005. Despite the shit that went wrong, I have a roof over my head. I can pay all of my bills (sort of?), I have reconnected with friends that I thought I lost, I have a wonderful boyfriend that I love, and can see having a wonderful future with. Thank you!

Anyway, that's it. I just felt the need to do this. Feel free to smack me upside the head if you catch me not doing these things!

LOVE YOU ALL, TONS AND TONS!!!!