Grrrrr....

I am trying really hard to not be excited by whatever *this* is. J. has made it perfectly clear that he is NOT going to make it into more than a passing fascination until he is sure that I am not still completely hung up on Sean.
I did talk to Sean. He says I deserve to be happy with someone that wants me. i told him that no matter how he felt about it, I had to see it through with J. this time. I really screwed him over, and luckily, it wasn't too late for me to see how great he is! I mean, I do love Sean, but I can't wait forever, and I don't want to anymore.
Anyway, I am waaaay to excited for this to be good. GAH, Please, don't let me fuck this up too!