i give up.

i really do. just when i think that maybe life could possibly be getting a fraction better, everything turns to shit. i now get the lovely job of cancelling my apple order because mom only gave me half of her check this month. now i have to use that credit card to pay the mortgage instead. she was like "well isn't what i gave you enough?" hmmmmm, lets see, the mortgage is $650, and you gave me $300. um, no. that won't quite cover it. i hate my life.sometimes i hate her. right now i want to go crawl under a rock and die.