May. 8th, 2012 10:11 am
pandorablue: (I won't cry)
My mom passed away last night. It was quiet and peaceful: she wasn't in any pain. It was also a bit of a shock. She was in hospice, so we had been expecting it to some extent, but we weren't expecting it so soon. Jonathan has been my rock and I am grateful to him for everything. Little Human sort of gets it, but not quite. I feel bad for him, and I just want to hold him forever. Nikki and Kit came over to help and I needed them more than I realized.

I'll be okay. We'll all be okay.

I miss you mama.
This is probably not going to come as a shock to anyone, but here is the deal:

Jonathan and I are not together as a couple anymore. We still care for each other very much, but we just can't seem to make each other happy. We still cohabitate and will continue to do so for the foreseeable future. Think of us as the new Berney and Roxanne - the people in my immediate circle know what I am talking about. We still hang out and do stuff together because we are very good friends.

We are trying very hard to make this as easy as possible for each other and for Little Human. There are many reasons that I am unable to move out right now, but I don't feel the need to explain myself to anyone in this post. If anyone that doesn't know wants to, message me, and I will tell you. This is the best we can do right now, and it is currently working. Adjustments may be necessary in the future, but for now we are both at least pacified.

I appreciate all of the support we have both received during this upheaval. I have discovered who I can count on when things go awry and I have found some new friends to turn to. Thank you.
pandorablue: (I won't cry)
I think Jonathan and I are splitting up.


Jan. 23rd, 2010 08:48 pm
pandorablue: (Paddy Wagon)
For some reason, the Death of Neil Gaiman's cat, Zoe, is seriously messing me up. I guess it is because Zoe is a female tabby version of my Sam. I lost him 9 years ago. I love Paddy, but Sam was the best cat ever. He had a tumor in his mouth adn they could have removed it, but the vet said it almost always comes back. He was a chubby boy, and I wasn't willing to let it get bad enough to really interfere with his enjoyment of NOMS. When we took him to put him down, he purred the entire time. It was the only thing that made it bearable. I hope that Zoe goes like that.

This in particular has lead to a breakdown that is wreaking havoc with my already sore throat...


Jan. 2nd, 2010 04:30 pm
pandorablue: (Food)
My favorite present this holiday season was the dutch oven, which I discovered today will definitely have to go back. It had two small chips on the rim, which I might have been able to work around. However, while looking at it, I also discovered that it has a bubble on the bottom that has a small pinhole. So it is not usable. They have also gone up in price since mom ordered it, and I now can't replace it. Oh well, at least we'll have a little extra money for groceries or something this month.



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